> why do you think you're so cool? 

idk, because fools like you ask me shit

> how do you know claudia devlin?

i sent her a message on Fb going "all right darling, your work makes me excited." and it went from there

> what camera should i get

whichever one you can afford

> film or digital

film

> fuck you

i'm not like that

> you suck

i don't recognize this at all

> do you have a bf

no

> do you like girls

as long as they're not wanting to have sex with me, then sure i like girls

> what camera do you use

ae-1, 60d, olympus stylus zoom

> do you think you're cute 

sure?

> have you found a life yet? 

apparently 

> how do you get on imdb?

make a movie or be in one

> can you tell me about the last book you've read

no

> russia loves you

then i should learn russian, (thank you) <-- in russian

> are you nice?

yes!!

> do you like black boys?

sure

> what is your favorite clothing line?

i don't have one, i just like what looks good to me

> any advice?

like the idea that everyone doesn't like you

> are you sleepy?

mind-reader!!! yes

> are you a virgin?

yes

> are you tired of fucking everyone?

i'm never pleased

> what's your favorite movie?

idk, really, i don't

> do you hate anyone?

no

> jesus is my homeboy

cool

> are you a religious freak?

i am a Jesus freak.yes

> where do you live?

houston

> drugs?

obviously not, becuz weed aint shit

> how old r u?

20

> what do you think of gay people?

they are people who are gay

> why do you like denmark?

because i'm not like them

> spoiled rich cunt, you're not famous, no one likes you

well...i saw that coming

> i hate when ppl think they're being funny answering questions, you are not funny

and, what do you think you're being?

> i have better things to do then to read your sarcastic answers

it sure doesn't seem that way

I'm tired of being in the spirit of the Lord, my God everyday and still having to be emotionally bound by my consumption of weed. There has to be something that connects to me at a deeper level, so that my spirit will have peace - at a higher capacity. When being gaged with the conflicts of my spirit, I love to have a smoke, this is how I got in this situation, weed brings peace to my physical (body) and psychological (mind) sense. But, I am learning that I can't just play with my mind and touch the ineffectual senses of my body and expect to prosper in my spirit. So, now that the days have took my ganja, I get upset in my spirit and I lose peace within myself and with God. My mind gets stressed out, where I can't even sleep at night, drinking just to calm myself down, listening to the same songs over and over and still getting nowhere. I know, y'all ain't never been here. For the weapons of warfare are not carnal, but are born out of the spirit. We are not mighty in flesh, and this year, this addiction has got to get off of me. Because God is doing something crazy in my life..that is getting me out of the box. And when I step out, I need everything in my power to be in check. I will not let my spirit be taken for granted. Thank you Jesus for providing me with strength. I'm about to step into a realm of blessings that even my haters can't stop, and I need to be prepared. I declare this year will be beyond what I can even think, dream, or dare to imagine. How do I know this? Because, God has done it before. As of today, I'm not gonna worry about it, because with all this being said, I'm still here by the grace of God, and 2012 has been testing my manifestation for being blessed. So, I speak unto everything that holds up my character, in the voice of Lil Wayne, stop throwing pebbles at a bulletproof glass. You can't stop me. And, just think if you haven't been under attack, you ain't been fighting for shit. 

Stay blessed, April 

* Don't me get wrong, I still enjoy having weed, but I want to get to the point, where I can I have it and it doesn't have me. I got into it, out of depression, and I'm not depressed anymore. So, I need to strike of sense of balance within it and myself, and sometimes the best way to propagate structure is to tear the whole thing down and start building again on a new and stable foundation. Best xx

So I saw these glasses the day after Christmas, loved them, but had no money to buy them. So, after being terribly nice and realizing the value of trusting a higher source, God, the lady there went beyond their polices and procedures to hold them until the new year, when my mother's insurance would be able to cover the costs. So, there's a most charming quality to bringing your likability up to God's standard of being, good things happen! I left empty handed but filled with hope. Fast forward to the new year, yay!! Going to pick up my glasses, right? Uhh..no. Some lady who worked at the store went behind me and bought them, albeit they had been there forever, and had piqued no particular interest to anyone until I desired em. Soooo, Bummer. I had got an eye exam for these bitches. So, sulk-sulk, put your headphones on and tune out your mind, and realize it could be a hell of a lot worse, but by modern measure it registered as wtf, you promised me that they would be here. So, I don't get my way, yet. Patience and also reminding myself of the status that I was still extremely blessed and prosperous in this moment compared to so many others, this problem was not a problem. At my mother's suggestion, when I arrived home, I call all the lenscrafters in Houston, not much luck on finding a discontinued and discounted frame. Until, the 2nd to last store on my list, they had the glasses, but were so far away it was not even worth it. Gas, petrol whatever you call it, is expensive. Still, God is good and they offered to ship them to a store near me for free, I'd get them in 1 day. Long story short, well...not really, but all things work out for good for those who live and believe the greatness of God. Not all things are good, but all things work together to never abandon the purpose placed on your life, whatever that might be. In my opinion, it's incomprehensible for anyone to work out His plan, we only see what's in front of us, what our circumstances present or don't, we don't tend to see a bird's eye view of our problems, we live in our own little world - devoid of any sort of realization that our desires are often not the center of the universe. Perhaps, that's just me, though? I know each and every one of you are currently preoccupied with the mishaps of some poorly developed country. So, yeah, nice try proving me wrong. Today, I sit typing this in my old glasses, but my new ones are safely tucked away - the cold, icy metal frame comforted by a coiffure of rare ostrich feathers in a below than average case on one-one-two Grand Street. I am good, because God and His people are great. Best, April